Ever been in a situation where you have been trapped and confined to one thing and cannot escape?
Well I, guess everyone has to go through this at some point in their lives. Many a time my life halts at one thing leaving me guessing as to what am I doing in my life where two divergent paths arises for me to come out from what I've been confided in yet those paths are left unchosen because of the inner apprehension about the number of things where one's emotion and one's comfort in certain dealings have no room to fit in. The apprehension is more likely about the hypocrisy in which our society has been laid in and this is what the society does and unlikely about as to whether one is going to be successful in its pursuit in the later future. Once you are confided in one thing, there is no room to comfort and all you have to do is adjust in the odds where there is just no room to back out and start with something new and unique or something that pleases your inner senses. The hypocrisy is not just about one thing but it is about the plethora of things which our society in the wider sense does and our friends, colleagues or acquaintances does in the narrower sense. The so-called hypocrisy is something I have to go through regularly and people tend to question my ideas, my thoughts and my visions calling me 'weird' passively. Well, my question is who likes to be judged for every small detail? No one likes it for sure. But then, as far as my ethnology is concerned they do judge you for everything and sometimes a subconscious being like me, or like you or like everyone, in general, tend to overlook but sometimes deep in the heart it feels as if somebody is pinching a needle in your delicate and fragile heart which leaves me and everyone of us vulnerable from inside, no matter how stronger one may appear from their outward disposition. Sometimes, it feels as if there is no courtesy and mannerism left in the people at large where they can judge you and humiliate you in front of the whole crowd without even giving a second thought to their words. And I'm one of them who have to go through all of this where I overlook certain things and react and overthink about certain things, where I am left vulnerable and become so feeble to fix my wounded heart from the harshness of people and the harshness of life. The perk of growing up is when you have to deal with both good and bads, even and odds and bitter and sweets. So, growing up I realized that let alone the society at large, the ones who become closer to you judge you so grotesquely and appallingly that you are left vulnerable and nowhere to go and share your pains with others as there is no one you can rely on. The most distressing part according to me is when you have to incessantly explain yourself to the others. Well, I don't like to explain myself to others every now and then and as the matter of the fact, no one really likes to explain themselves. The concept of explaining yourself comes as a self-defense mechanism against humility and hypocrisy which is relatable to everyone at some point of time but imagine when you have to do it almost everytime and it has become a part of your life, in like you have to do it each time you meet certain hypocrites on your way and that is distressing. There is no way escaping this barbarity but to still remain on a positive note, always remember that it's your vivid and creative imagination that forms your opinion which can never be understood by the dull head so the next time somebody questions your opinions or judges you keep this in mind.
